Do you ever
just feel yourself start to get a bit better? Like you obsess a little less about how you look and for a few days you don’t walk past windows and stare at your reflection, and then you remind yourself that you can’t let yourself recover - not because you enjoy hating yourself or counting calories - but because you’re afraid of recovering and if you recover you’ll still be fat and will never look the way you want to? If so yeah, me too.